PsycoDad• Show philosophies

Hi I'm totally new to all this. So here it goes. I' ve been thru alot of anguish and grief .  I've  suffered loses, had loves had dreams and goals. Yet I'm sitting here wondering why my life is in shambels.  I'm totally confused with which direction I should take my life. I'm a Sagitarius,so  Im a wanderer. And I cant change who I am. I have 4 beautiful children that mean the world too me. My life revolves around them and all they are going thru. I live away from them after being asked to leave by their mother. It was a totally selfish thing she did. After 20 years of marrige and 4 babys. She pulls the plug on our family. Now bare in mind she's cheated on me twice, had a prison pen pal and i do mean pal. We were divorced and remarried, because supposedly She realized she truly loved me after all. That lasted about 5 years. We both did some rotten things to each other along the way. Just say lies and deception were the bases of our entire marrige. I've been on my own now for over 4 years. Well not actaully on my own.I have to live with my brother in order to survive. Most of my friends are drunks and dont have a brain left. I have no one to lean on. No support system. I find myself prefeering to live like that, being how I got stabbed in the back. I lost touch with all my old friends. Which I think is a good thing. My children are living with 2 drunks. Because mom choses to go thru life drunk. And I cant afford a place to put them.(child support is killing me). My life is in total turmoil. I'll be hear for anyone who wants to talk chat. r.e. any thing about life. I'm keeping my head above all the shit piling around me, and hope to help others do the same.  I'm open minded And speak my mind. I have alot of opinions and only want the truth. I have no more time for lies. I try to trust everyone. But only take things for face value. I hope you like My Page as it grows and would love your feedback. Thanks for reading me.