This is a little hard to explain but all I seem to have is hate in life. I kinda lost the emotion of love... I can't even find it in my heart to love my family. I only do things for myself and dont care about others. I like to people to suffer, I always think they deserve it. I became a person of short words. Everyonearound me at school started to dislike me and say I was made of stone, I could only hate them. I always feel the urge to kill someone,infact everyone on this planet, This may sound crazy but after a while I sometimes actually heard voices in my head that would make decisions for me. Yep im pretty much crazy but I dont care, I think everythings pointless and want it all to go away...
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Self Induced Drama30% Voted for by Aidenn, Hekate, Subway.
This is what we call schizophrenia. It's a disease of the mind that causes feelings of mistrust and causes people to hear voices and see things that may not be there. This may be one part of it, but I believe that this is mostly self induced drama on your part. So what if everyone says your made of stone. I went through the same damn thing in my old high school. Trust me, from someone who's been there before, don't listen. You should know by now that most people are just out to hurt you and make you feel like dirt, whilest rising their own soaring egos. It's a cruel thing, but don't listen to it. The voices: all right. I sometimes hear voices and one might call me a schizophrenic, but I live a normal happy life. I know that with people saying all of those mean things, you are going to get discouraged, but don't. Work up a love for your family. It hasn't gone away nor has it left you. It's all still in your heart...yea, you still have one. Don't worry about that. If you can work on ignoring the people at school and such, and continue to love your family, then I assure you that the "urge" to kill will go away. (btw, no one really has the urge to kill, it's a saying made up to be said in situations like this, or to try and get out of a murder trial, and I don't want to see about either of those in your future.) There is hope. Don't worry about there not being hope...hope is somehting that we can all stand on when we think that nothing is left. And somehow, it will pick us back up. If you ever want to talk, IM me or something, and I'll be glad to chat. All of my hope, Aidenn
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wellVoted for by pnktrky.
if you can hate you can love. that is a very real statement because of you know what to hate and how to hate then you must know love and how to love. they say that love and hate are a hair apart. all i see is a person who doesnt take life as he should probably a past expeirence with somebody and now hate all. but remember one thing. *Lost one* still wants to be happy and he cannot acomplish this without life. what *Lost* hates is what life has brought to *Lost*. he hates what he sees but is not doing anything to change it. its quite simple really. you hate the world because of *X* reason and you take it out on everybody instead of reaching for happiness that will last. and really *Lost one* ws just courious to what ppl think of him and for maybe someone might hit the nail on the head and he could see things differently... but i think its more of the first one.
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Two ways in lifeVoted for by mudgod.
There are two ways in life to live. You are obviously living the "get" way of life. All you do is want and it is never enough to satisfy you. If this really bothers you. If you want to change (and it sounds like you're looking for help), then consider the "give" way of life. Just give. Hold no thoughts of getting in return. You are giving to give. It has nothing to do with things or money. Give your prayers, give your time, give whatever. Just give. The world will not go away because you don't like it. It IS an ugly world and getting uglier. But you can only control you. And no matter how much you give, few will appreciate it. You need to stop taking and give. Just to give. Try it, you can change your outlook on life.
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What tha #%@%$!Voted for by trueblueliberty.
Jesus Christ on a stick,I just wanna know if you live next door to me or go to my sons school.I am curious are you either really rich(spoiled) or really poor(nothing but shit for dinner) or neither? Trueblueliberty
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Think positively
If you really hate things in life, then you must have some kind of emotion. There must be a balance in life. Part of your health is made up of physical, mental, social, and spiritual. There has to be combination each of those to live. If you seem to have hate outweigh the others then why are you still living? Think positively on things and be more optimistic. I think you are a good person if you only show it inside and outside.
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Hekate
November 1, 2006
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Best Wishes
Life is complicated and hard. It is up to us on how we handle things. Writing poetry and doing hobbies might be able to heal some of the hurt that is buried deep inside of you. I've learned a lot from the time I've been at AP and doing other things. Whenever you're hurting just start writing. Try to not listen to "angry music" Center your soul, body and mind. It might help you to calm your thoughts. Listen to some relaxing music like the ocean waves and other things. This is to just add on to what she said above :) Be Well, KariPlease register or login to comment! It's totally free