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Truly lost...

Yeah,its me, it's Christmas time and I should be happy but Im not. Ive been seeing a couple of phsychiatrists(did I spell that right?) or whatever you call them for a little while now and they said that they thought I had a serious problem at first, now they think Im getting better. Are all these people like this... there so darned annoying and ask really,realllyyy STUPID questions that even I don't have the answer to.. and they say Im getting better? Better from what? And just the way they stare and smile at you.. it makes you want tare them to bits or run out the room screaming.. I feel like Im nearing ever closer to the edge of sanity than Ive ever been before... Nothing means anything anymore.. nothing makes sense.. theres no point.. everythings false.. feelings are false.. people are false..everyones turning against me... everythings turning against me... even now im feeling a little anxious.. I fell like I want to run miles and miles from my house in the freezing cold screaming and lashing out at everything...
How can I live like this?
I'll end up doing something I'll regret now but won't regret then, and the walls are closing in...
I think the only reason I live is because I fear death.
How can I live like this?

  • Don't worry
    We all feel really, hopelessly lost during periods in our lives. Life got more boring and more annoying from when we were little kids, and it never went back.

    You just have to find a different route. Stop trying to fiure out what went wrong, and look to what you can enjoy. You'd be surprised how much there is enjoy around this seemingly awful place. Something everywhere. Whatever you enjoy a little, really explore it. Books, movies, writing, excercise, philosophy, going out and meeting people, dancing, family. Whatever. Really embrace it. Try new things too.

    Take pride in your stronger traits. Humor, thoughtfulness, energy, introspection, looks, skills, listening, caring, peacemaker, friend, avid reader or film enthusist.

    People aren't AS false as you think. Okay, some of them are. But screw them. The rest are pretty great on the inside. So what if they act a certain way out of being insecure? You can't hide who you really are under certain clothes or music or mustered up attitude.

    Tell your therapists how you feel. They're not completely skillless and inane, they're trying to help and are fairly educated. Maybe I'd leave out the "Wanna tear them into bits" part, but just let them know that you don't feel like oy;ure getting that better. That you still feel depressed, and that even if they MAY be listening and interested, you feel uncomfortable with what you perceive as their repetive facial responses.

    Their questions may seem pointless, but they are going somewhere and learning things from them.

    "I think the only reason I live is because I fear death."

    Ha, add on an attatchment to the ones that love me and I've been there. Not really suicidal, but not motivated to live. It gets better, I swear.

    "How can I live like this?"

    One day at a time. Actively try and be happier. There's so much wrong with this world, there's no reason not to enjoy it as best we can. Be kind to others and do what you enjoy most. It will make you feel better.
    75%  Voted for by Weydon, mudgod, pnktrky.
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  • Honestly?
    You can't. You are a slave to the non-willed, to the ramblings of the un-controlled and spontaneous mind. However, I recommend that you voice the 'top twenty' things you despise, or that consume you with fear, angst and confusion, those things that you loathe or that worry you - the top twenty inconsistencies in the world. Once these are identified, find anything that - and not presently - that you ever did find pleasure, comfort, security and solace from, even if you have to look back as far as the age of six or seven, and list, if you can, ten of these.

    Then we can go from there.

    Everything is relative to the mental. Ecstasy is not found in the solace of absolutes, but the solace of purely subjective mental comforts, or imminent convictions. Problem is, convictions waver, they change whether you want them to or not. Beliefs, which are chosen by the proponent of will, do not.
    Voted for by TeChNoWC.
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