Pure temptation, experimenting and a little peer pressure.

If someone tells you not to do something, you want to know why not, and what will happen if you do it. So you find out.

“So, this is all about the things that your not supposed to do. Why do you do stuff, when many people are trying to protect you,”

Generally because I don’t think they’re as bad for me as they may think.

“If it were not wrong, then you wouldn’t need to hide it from anyone. Drinking, not at all wrong, but getting drunk, is. You don’t hide it from your friends, because they probably don’t care, but when the… the… um… I don’t know, if your parents, or the cops come, why do you run away”

I don’t hide it from my parents. I think it’s nothing to be ahsamed of. I hide it from the cops because it is illegal and I don’t want go through the hassle of the ridiculous punishment of something that isn’t wrong in the first place.

“Drugs, worse then being drunk, it is more illegal… I think, one too many can send you to the hospital… I think.”

They can. They can also kill you. I think people hide their drugs or excessive alcohol because while they know it’s bad and while they themselves often WANT ot quit, they simply can’t overcome it all. Their desire to get a fix is so strong, but they know that if their family or friends found out they would be stopped or hindered from achieving that fix. Therefor, they will hide it.

Each persons life is an endless search for personal fulfillment, and some go searching up the ally of drugs and alcohol. Its just a journey some take to try and feel whole.. and it can be an easy way to have fun if you enjoy that type of thing.

Passion drives me. I am passionate in all things I do. Even when I am playing or sleeping or mourning; all is done with passion.

if you tell me not to do something i have this undeniable urge to do it…if you tell me yea go ahead you can do it i won’t want to…it isn’t as fun.

_Ash

Don't do what I do, instead do what I say.

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kind of ironic.